悲惨的考试周

才考完三科，已经是行尸走肉的样子
最近越来越不能熬夜，在凌晨读书的吸收力只有五十分
以前那前一天读就能完全进大脑的气势去了哪里
虽然这个是不好的习惯，不过最近有在改进>.<因为现在做不到了，哇哈哈
我以后一定要认真点上课，考试一定要早早读（不知道自己说了多少次了。。）
虽然还没达到在前一天就复习完毕的那种
不过至少有开始早复习，应该是被我男朋友影响，我觉得他比我还勤劳＝。＝
嗯应该是他上课不专心所以前几天要更早复习
听到了一位学长说的话，不要忘了读书最初的目的
读书的初衷就是要得到知识，这是最基本的却是往往都被我们忽略的！
现在很多人的心态就是：为了文凭而读书。
学习本来应该就不是考试前才为了成绩而读，应该把内容学以致用。
虽然我也是没做到，但我会努力做到最好。
很多人会说：成绩罢了嘛！出社会需要的是经验和知识，文凭只不过是入门票！
那我们在中学学院大学不就虚度光阴了？既然已经在里头了就把身为学生的责任尽到最好吧
不然整个读书生涯在做什么你可能都不知道，你的回忆里也只有那喝茶聊天的欢乐时光

2014生活小目标
不迟到
不空读书，考试早温习
改掉临时抱佛脚的习惯
尝试没做过的事，不管什么想做去做便是
别放弃
少带lens
勤劳保养
有个记事本好好规划和记录东西
写日记记录生活大小事
把打扫练成兴趣。。

《非常完美》

https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=1383086405257154

这是一个相亲的中国节目
很有新鲜感 所以也造成越来越多这类似的节目了
看着这段告白，再看看评论上网民们的祝福
我竟然觉得很不真实，我不相信一见钟情
更不相信这种童话
她凭着微博的关注就爱上他了，她说她喜欢他的生活态度
这样你就了解他了吗？你爱上的只不过是外壳而已
打个比方，我就是这种人，我不会在面子书让大众看见我悲的一面
常常关注我的人肯定会觉得，我是个很开朗的女生，
常常参加活动，生活充满着活力
其实，内心的软弱和悲伤只有真正的那几个朋友知道。

但换了个角度来想，我又不得不佩服这女生
她很勇敢，她在感情上下了很大的赌注
这次成功了并不代表以后走得下去
还是祝福你。
视频的最后有人说了一句：跟着心走，别跟着脑子走
心中麻麻的，现实的残酷让我理性往往就会超过感性

回家无聊之post

你可以发现我最近都没在写部落格没在emo

因为我都偷偷写在档案里自己留着自己看。

我不习惯给别人看我的心情因为我曾经被指导过必须做个加分女孩，

emo个乱七八糟一天发十几个伤心状态的facebooker很令人反感。

我希望做个正能量传播者所以通常只放开心搞笑的事，

不开心的就尽量和好朋友还是亲近的人说。

不过有时候太深入的事无人能分享就只好自己收起来，

长大了本来就会有一些不愿意被坑出来的秘密。

想为自己写写心情，抒发当时的凄凉伤感，

有时候才写了几个字就会忍不住删去，因为害怕继续联想下去会更容易感到不愉快。

我绝对不会写关于我情感的事因为我不会让你知道我当时的感觉，因为你的事而开心？犯贱？流泪？感动？我就是要让你猜不透。

就因为不继续联想，所以很多事都可以保持乐观的态度面对
有时候被人们劝得对那件事要放弃的时候，
又会不小心被一些激励短片点醒，不知道是好事还是坏事
正面的就是你一直会继续为那件事努力，坏事是指你对那件不可能的事执着不放。

新学期新生营完了这个sem拿了两个挑战的课也有些该突破自己的工作，加油吧黄佩铃！！！always ready!!!

Fool

Some people live for love, some people live for the fame and power, some people live just to play the game.

No matter how you regard your life, it's yours.

Stupid girl, stop your idiot acting and face the realistic.

It's a shame if you keep fool yourself and bury what you actually know.

See, what're the replies you get today.

What's the position of you in her/his heart? NOTHING.

So, what's your reaction? Are you fool?

You are deserved that how you have been treated by his/her today.

LOVE, FRIENDSHIP, FAMILY, you're betrayer and loser.

You are just a toy, being played by others, and still, you are willing to.

Hell ya.

Today was the first time we went to grandfather's grave (mum's father),

It's on the slope and I almost fell because of my torn shoes.

Due to the Chinese culture, we ought to burn heaven-used money to our ancestor. Other than money, we also burn two cars for grandfather, there are WISH and BM. I saw some of my friends even burn some advanced products for their ancestors such as Iphones and Ipad. Hmm.. how they know how to use?

Me and he

A fairy tale I created to write in a part of my novel 。。

long long time ago。。。

I can't say what is that feeling but I'm sure that I don't really like this feeling.

From the first time I saw you in the ball and you are the one who caught my attention.

YES, you are such a charming people for me and now, still same to me.

You are handsome in Jersey, you are cute in T-shirt, you are eye-catching in grey, YOU ARE CHARM  in every single cloth.

I was like omg, you are my ideal type but, It was disappointed I felt that you are playful after we get along together.You can speak honeyed words to any girls and make me scare of you.

So I started to keep away from you and had my "own life".

Once I started to know that you were wooing a senior from our school and I was like OMG.

She is such a beautiful lady and even girls will also admire her.

I can see your sincere from your every single action, what you do to her.You accompanied her to revision, you helped her to find a stick when she want to open her iphone.

I never saw you get on nerves until the time I told you she joined in a competition you don't know.

You just want to participate what she did and all her time.

After all, I just realized I misunderstood you for a long time. You are not playful at all and you dispel my perception that handsome guys equal to playful guys.

Seriously, I was guilty because I misunderstood you. We did not contact because we had "distance" between us. So I kept my feeling as you have your life, and same as me too.

Time tames strongest grief loll, 

Recently, I wonder when we starting our chat on sms and Line.

I have no idea but now we getting on very well together and we chat frequently.

Our relationships are not so fine actually, as when we come to understand more about others, I found that you're a miser. (not in terms of money but your mood). You always bully me and you enjoy with what you done. You are happier when I getting on nerves after you bullying me. 

That's fine, I still can accept. Afterwards, I found that you're bit bossy too. I can't believe you just splashed me with water when we were washing our hands, and yes, your expression was like you do this for granted.
Lastly, we get wet together because I splash you back.

Although you had exposed all your bad patterns, but you still has some merits.

You're gentle sometimes like feeds me when eating (too nausea) and combs my hair when it's messy. (yuckss) 

So far we are buddies now.  SHIT!!! I hate you!!

Sweet Day ♥

那天认识了一个非常让我崇拜的日本女生，她叫ako

Ako看起来外表甜美，没有霸气的脸蛋让人觉得很亲近。
这么可爱的女生，却有着非凡的勇气，独自背包旅行来到了马来西亚。
当然来马来西亚之前还去过越南、泰国等的国家。
她今年才二十岁，就已经到过八个国家旅行，跟我们这里的年轻人比起来，她的勇气绝对值得我们钦佩。

她真人很可爱，只是照相没那么漂亮，不过我就是喜欢这样的女生。
我本来想跟她拍多点照片，可是手机拍出来的像素没那么好
用了她相机拍，可是她没上传 哈哈哈，没关系，有这张就够了


raining cats and dogs X__X have to off my computer

考试完毕

I'm not satisfied with my attitude this few days, it's really bad and naive. This is my common exam-sick. I easily get on nerve and fed up on everything. I show stink face to almost everyone all the time especially my boyfriend. BUT he was busy this week so he DOES NOT BOTHER me ;( It's fine, I tell myself. I treat he bad recently, not only the exam time. I'm trying to ponder what I think and why I do like that. I'm really a bad girl and sometimes I fed up with what I done.

Ok. Try to not think such things and he is playing basketball right now. He really need to relax because this week he almost dismiss his work at nine ._.

Just now I find a website promotion that I really interested with it!!
It's MIVVA beauty box. With subscription RM38/per month, you can get 5-6 of beauty product.

Oh my god!It's not only reasonable and it's really worth!
The products are valuable than it's price! There will be one or two FULL size product in the beauty box.
I quickly sign up to become a member of the website but I found that I do not have online account to pay.
I thought got bank transfer so I got to learn after back home>.<

大专生交流活动

昨天去了新山新闻局主办的大专生交流活动
其实我觉得这项活动并没有透过竞赛游戏达到促进学生的交流与互动
反而是让我体验了一个团体、一个学校的团结。
我们南方大学学院虽然只有八个人，相比着其他带着三十余人来的学院，我们的精神绝不输给他们。

去那里就很像回到中学一样，一眼望过去都是马来人
有点怀念也有点排斥，不是排斥种族，是排斥回忆

其中一个环节是听一个不知名的人物说话
真的很像中学，台前讲话，台下的睡觉
有一个歌手也算是企业家吧，来了这个活动，他看起来在马来界很红
他走到哪里那些学生就喊到哪里，尤其是他坐下来对女生唱歌的时候
嗯，我看了只想睡觉，他也很识相地不会走过来，应该知道他在华人界没有market。
当然，我也没有拍他的照片。

没想到家还用这个钱包呢，呵呵xD

第二次来starbuck，还是觉得普普通通。

running粉丝都会想买的帽子！可惜这里卖很贵，这是在格子铺看到的

夜深使人emo

有时候看了别人的部落，觉得很感动，自己也想要用文字、言语去表达什么，却始终写不出来。有时候很高兴的一整天，明明就满满的悸动，却留不下什么。我想用文体记录下生活的每一天，记录全部琐琐碎碎的回忆，可是有时候写了两三句话，却忍不住删去。我对华文有特别的情感，但却特别烂，还很羡慕那些拥有无限、广泛词汇的人们。而我，只能用有限的词汇来表达我的情感。我为自己的愚笨感到悲伤，已经放弃的我，对文字还有一份想念。我曾经想当作家，但发现我太不够格。我曾经想天天写blogger，却发现不知该如何记录我的生活。我曾经想要投稿，半途却放弃。

我很烂，真的很烂。每次夜深人静的时候，我都会觉得自己是个烂人、懒人。为什么到现在临时抱佛脚的习惯不改，为什么没自信的习惯不改，为什么乱七八糟的习惯不改，为什么拖时间的习惯不改，为什么多情的习惯不改。明明这些绊脚的习惯让你碍了很多事，但却无法轻易改变。

他问我，你有什么梦想，我现在的人生很迷茫，毫无方向。我犹豫了，我的梦想是什么，我来升学是为了什么，我读商科是为了什么，其实我也不知道。是家庭关系还是个人的慵懒让我现在凌晨三点还在电脑前抱怨和发泄。这是固执吗？明明有得睡却不要睡，健康的身体一直在衰退。

好吧，去睡就是了。

读书周

稍微整理了这里之后

很多post又再次被我convert去草稿箱

不知道为什么，就觉得以前写的东西很恶心

很多都是心情日记=.=现在想起来怎么这么幼稚

每次都是这样

说不定下次我再来的时候这个帖子又被我存进草稿箱了

有时候很怀疑自己的头脑，是不是漏了什么洞

明明就背好的句子presentation时洞洞就会自动开启 咔嚓 全部资料跌掉了

到现在有时候还无法有自己的独立思考，我这个人就是很缺乏创意、联想、看法

不知道是不是小时候我就很听妈妈的话，所以一直就是跟从着。

跟从者当久了，对事情缺乏自己的独立看法。

这个星期是study week，也就是说下星期会考试

可是我却在..

哎哟，present完吃个饭而已，没什么大不了xD
在我旁边的是老妹，下面的是蕉蕉。

晚上又去tealicious喝奶茶，很喜欢tealicious，虽然只有去过两次。
tealicious环境让人感到舒适，尤其是沙发座位的那部分，而且奶茶和某些食物也很不错。
那里也有一些可以消遣的小游戏，例如叠叠乐、uno。重点是还有蜡笔小新的书。

买了一个单肩包，这个颜色还不错，幸好没有买和老妹一样颜色，不然我会后悔。
另外还有两个男性的钱包，比我单肩包还贵，好心痛T^T
有人说很贴心，我还偷偷开心了一下，哈

14/3荒废了一整天，肚子痛+头痛 我果然不是迟睡的料
该怎么拒绝别人啊啊，我很累/.\也很无奈 终于阿郭懂那种心情了